Who writes such a blog and why? I’m a 20 year old girl who has big dreams, who wants her words to be heard and change the world. Yeah, that’s me. I don’t know if people want to read what I have to say but we’ll give it a try. Maybe somebody gets inspired. And maybe this somebody is you.
So here is my story: I grew up in a nice little village in a beautiful region in Germany, the Black Forest. Yes it sounds fairytale-like and it kind of is. As you can imagine we have beautiful forests and big mountains. The Black Forest…sounds magic, doesn’t it? I grew up there going to school, playing with the neighbor-kids outside, oh big adventures. When I went to High School there was so much learning, learning, learning…but education? Was it really helpful what I learned in school? Some things yes, but most of what I learned was just to forget after the tests. I knew I couldn’t study just after finishing High School. It was too much. I knew this was not all there is. I hoped this was not all.
I needed space. I needed freedom. So I decided to travel. Not just a “Going-for-a-week-to-Spain-vacation”. I wanted to T R A V E L. I wanted to go away from it all, from all the opinions of other people, from all the influences, from all the voices which confused me so I couldn’t hear my own voice, my own heart.
After High School I worked and saved money for my big trip to the other side of the world…I wanted to go to New Zealand. A land of amazing landscapes, pure nature, little population and many many wonders. People told me: you can’t go that far, that’s ridiculous! How can you survive over there? You don’t have enough money, the flight is too long, you are too shy…The last one I almost believed. Before I went to New Zealand I was one of the shyest girls you can imagine. I never talked to people (except my friends), when a stranger started to talk to me I was scared as shit. So many times I wished I was invisible and sometimes I really thought I am. But deep deep deep in my heart I wanted to be heard, I wanted to be seen and I wanted to be loved.
I just couldn’t see this yet.
Life unfolded in front of me in those 11 months I was in New Zealand. It was challenging, it was hard sometimes but every single second was worth it. I have so many amazing stories to tell. It was what I was looking for and much more. Things happened I didn’t even dream of before. And life was just life in it’s purest form.
Back in Germany I was overwhelmed by my “old” life. At home it felt like there is this big hole that wanted to suck me in to be like the old Selina again. I couldn’t stand it there…I say this with shame because I hurt my family…But now it’s all peace and harmony again, which I am very grateful for. I have the best parents in the world. I just didn’t realize it back then.
Two and a half weeks after I came back from New Zealand I left home to study in a beautiful town 5 hours away from home. I still needed my own space, alone. I started to study architecture which I wanted to study since I was 10 years old. It was always my big dream to be creative, build houses people like and look up to with amazement. I wanted to make peoples lives better. I studied one semester and in the beginning I really liked it. I worked so hard. But at the end of my first semester I realized, that’s not what I want to do the rest of my life. That’s not even what I want to do the next 5 years! So for months during my semester break I was looking for my “purpose”. I spent days searching the internet, reading books, paying for online courses, watching videos on youtube about dreams, success, inspiration, purpose, about goals and ideas…Some nights I couldn’t sleep because I had to figure this out! As fast as possible! And I searched and searched and I LEARNED. I learned much more by myself than in University. I was working, working on my life, figuring out my dreams and trying to listen to my heart. I’m still doing it but with more clarity.
I created this blog to tell the world: I am here. I have dreams. I believe.
I want to be an inspiration. I want to be inspired. I want to live adventures. I want to live fully. I want to love and be loved. I want to travel. I want to do everything that’s in my heart waiting to be done. I don’t want to regret anything when I am old. I want to be who I’m meant to be. I want to serve. I want to help people believe. Believe in themselves, believe in their dreams, believe in their heart.
I created this blog because my heart demands me to.
I created this blog for me but more important: for YOU
If you are a dreamer like me and you want to follow your heart but you struggle, please feel free to talk to me. I am here for you as much as you are here for me. I need to know more people who are like me. The ones who demand more from life, those who want to achieve big goals. I want to listen to you and maybe we can help each other.
Yours in love,